Half a bowl of cereal left on the sill

You texted four words then my whole chest chilled

Blinds wide open and the room too bright

I laugh to myself cause sad looks ugly in this light

Still I chase the ache

Burned hands still reaching

Still I twist the blade

Heart loud and bleeding

I hate myself for wanting you this loud

I scream your name into a hollow crowd

You never loved me but I stayed somehow

I hate myself for saying it out loud

I killed my pride and laid it on your bed

You walked right past like something left for dead

I scream your name inside my stupid head

I love you hurts like nothing ever said

You touched my hair on some forgettable street

I built a whole damn kingdom from a breath so cheap

Crying in the shower where the sound don't quit

My knees gave out but you don't know that half of it

Still I chase the ache

Burned hands still reaching

Still I twist the blade

Heart loud and bleeding

I hate myself for wanting you this loud

I scream your name into a hollow crowd

You never loved me but I stayed somehow

I hate myself for saying it out loud

I killed my pride and laid it on your bed

You walked right past like something left for dead

I scream your name inside my stupid head

I love you hurts like nothing ever said

What if I burned every letter that I wrote you in my mind

What if I finally stop shaping my body to your ghost every night

What if I buried the wanting and stitched up the soft

What if confession was never enough

I hate myself for wanting you this loud

I scream your name into a hollow crowd

You never loved me but I stayed somehow

I hate myself for saying it out loud

I killed my pride and laid it on your bed

You walked right past like something left for dead

I scream your name inside my stupid head

I love you hurts like nothing ever said

Burned me whole and I still call it grace

Burned me whole and I still wear your face