Tsk tsk tsk tsk

New coat

Thin gloves

Breath hangs like a question

I rehearse my name

On the train window glass

Office door humming

Fluorescent hum on my skin

Two handsome strangers nod

I fake a laugh

Walk in

I feel dizzy tizzy

Spinning on my first day

Cold air in my chest

Too many words I can't say

I feel dizzy

Trying to stand

Trying to stay

You say it's just the weather

But my heart's in the way

Coffee cup trembling

My badge twists on its string

Their small talk circles

About weekends and little things

One joke cuts sideways

I smile

But it burns

I count the tiles

Til the ceiling starts to turn

I feel dizzy tizzy

Spinning on my first day

Cold air in my chest

Too many words I can't say

I feel dizzy

Trying to stand

Trying to stay

You say it's just the weather

But my heart's in the way

Maybe it's the air

Too sharp

Maybe I'm just scared to start oh

Maybe it's their eyes on me

Or something I can't name

But every step down this hallway

Feels like stepping off a plane

I feel dizzy tizzy

Spinning on my first day

Cold air in my chest

Too many words I can't say

I feel dizzy

But I'm still here

Come what may

Let the room keep on turning

I'll make my way someday