I thought of you beside the sea

我在海边想起了你，

So distant bright and cruel to me

遥远、明亮，却对我残酷无情。

I carved a window into stone

我在石上雕出一扇窗，

To see the stars I used to know

只为望见那些曾熟悉的星辰。

I turned my face toward the north

我转身面向北方，

Where June burns red and silence grows

那里六月燃烧如火，沉默如霜疯长。

I drank like thirst could kill the flame

我如烈渴灌酒，只愿熄灭那团火焰，

Blood in my mouth no voice no shame

嘴含血腥，无声也无羞。

I kissed the wind with broken lips

我用裂开的唇亲吻风，

And stared with eyes the dark eclipse

用眼凝望那漆黑的蚀光。

I saw with what my head had lost

我用失去理智的心去看，

A blind man chasing burning frost

如盲人追逐着炽热的霜。

Maybe I am blind

也许我已失明，

Maybe I am just

也许我只是——

A poet who walks with fire

一个与火同行的诗人。

I think of you

我想起你，

And run these empty streets

奔跑在空荡的街道，

Tonight I lose myself again

今夜，我又一次失去自己，

Tomorrow I’ll rise reborn

明日，我将重生而起。

I will be the child of the cosmos

我将诞于星辰与虚空之中，

A child of the century

成为这动荡世纪的遗孤。

Spend all my reckless youth

用尽我鲁莽的青春，

Then abandon love’s throne

再亲手弃下爱的王座。

I’ll be the captain cold and far

我将是那冰冷遥远的船长，

Steering through the noise of cities

穿行于城市的喧嚣之中。

Still I dream of only one

却始终只梦见那一个人，

That first June where warmth had stayed

那个第一次，六月仍温热地停留。

June was gold

那时的六月如金，

And poor men stood in fishing ports

穷人伫立于渔港边，

Collecting pay with weathered hands

用风裂的手掌收取微薄的酬金。

But I

而我——

I held a serpent close to me

我却将一条蛇搂入怀中，

The one who loved me

那条爱着我的蛇，

Lonely as the sea

孤独如大海。

Run through glass to reach the shore

奔过玻璃碎片，为了靠近彼岸，

Breathe the wind that never warms

呼吸永不会温热的风，

Swallow names I used to carry

吞下那些我曾背负的名字，

Burn the bridge without a storm

在无风的夜里焚尽桥梁。

She will live

她将继续存在，

In salt and sorrow

在盐与忧伤之间，

In pain forever

在永恒的痛苦里，

In the sea

在海之中。